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Last Wednesday I went to a fundraiser for AIM healthcare. They claimed that the legal battle against Cal OSHA had drained them financially and they need our help. So raising our tests by $10 isn’t enough.  Anyways I attended since it was to support our industry being safe.. in a way.  However, this sparked a big controversial issue for me.

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I asked my fans, you guys, on twitter how you felt about condoms being used in porn videos. Out of 50 people these were the results; 26 said they would still watch, 18 said it kills the fantasy and the condom would cause them to change the video, and 6 said they were unsure or didn’t care either way.

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Another Porn Star Tweeted that it was actually a law that we wear them, but no one is doing it. I have not been able to actually find the law that states that but I am not objected to it.

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A lot of you wanted to know my answer. I am sorry I could not tell you on twitter with a simple yes or no. It is not a simple subject.

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What I find much harder to understand is why porn actors – whose hygiene is pretty essential to get paid – would prefer not to wear them. Is it because the condom market is much more lucrative? Would insisting on safe sex ruin your reputation as an entertainer? Or is their objection similar to the punters – that “safety first” is just a turn-off?

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I am all about safe sex. In my personal life I use them(condoms). I would like to be a positive role model and promote safe sex in my porn life too. Sadly that is impossible in this era. I feel like a hypocrite because I tell people to be safe, but I am on film doing risky sexual acts. A huge part of the reason why directors don’t shoot condoms scenes is because they think it will not sell. Obviously, my fans proved otherwise. Yes porn is a fantasy, but how naive are you trying to pretend to be.  Another reason why the industry doesn’t want to use condoms could possibly be due to the fact that condoms will add to the production cost. Point blank period, that’s sad.  I feel like writing this blog may affect my work. I may even lose a few fans but guess what…. I don’t give a fuck. This is my blog so I can speak my mind without censorship.  I do wish I could use condoms in scenes, but I know that I cant. If I asked to use a condom when I got to set they would all laugh in my face. If I told my agent to only hire me for protected scenes, I would never work.

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I believe the industry should use condoms. Companies like kink.com and Wiked are doing just fine.

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So there ya go. That is my answer. I hope you enjoyed reading this. Please feel free to leave your comments. Thanks

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TLF

–>For some it is a day to remember, for others it’s just another gig. I was lucky enough to get a gig that I will remember for the rest of my life. I shot for kink’s public disgrace in my home town.

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–>Public Disgrace is a whole different level of porn. It is not just the black and white normal boring stuff. It is twisted, demented, unusual, difficult, extreme, intense, and demands a high sexual appetite. I had a blast but I definitely paid for it later….physically.

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–>When I got into hair and makeup there was a beautiful brunette trying on different clothes for her shoot. I didn’t know who she was so I assumed she was just another girl shooting for one of Kink’s sites. Then she started asking me about the scene and introduced herself as Princess Donna. She was my master that evening. I all of the sudden got excited… she was fucking hot. I love her boobs. I was a little nervous because of the things she was asking me of what I would be okay with and what I wouldn’t. It was all stuff that was either new to me or something I haven’t had much experience doing.

–>We went down to the dungeon and I saw the toy room for the first time. I should actually call it the equipment room.  There was everything from rope to clamps to chains to crazy looking gadgets to any kind of whip you can think of. I got a little scared, I’m not gonna lie. LOL. I walked across the hall to look at the set. Wow! It was grungy looking and a little intimidating. I still didn’t see all of the people since they kept them upstairs until it was time to start. I wasn’t afraid or intimidated by Princess Donna yet since she had been nice to me. However, that quickly changed. She told me to come back into the equipment room and had me undress. I was standing there practically naked while she tried on different metal chokers and restraints. At this point my heart was beating rapidly. I wouldn’t be surprised if she could have heard it! After they got all of the things together they had me go onto set. They tied me up and blind folded me.  I was scared. I heard her tell someone to go and get the guests.

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–>The lights were on, the camera was running and the scene begun. My hands were behind my back tied, my neck was in a choker hanging on a chain attached to the ceiling and I was alone. I was only alone for a couple minutes before I heard footsteps walking all around me after the metal door opened to the dungeon. I was told to introduce myself to the guests. I was trying to use my senses to figure out how many people were around me, but I had no idea. They laughed at me because I was too quiet. I was punished with water. They called it water torture. It wasn’t painful… it actually felt really good.

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–>A lot of crazy stuff happened in that scene. I was hung upside down bound by my feet. I was tied up in many crazy positions, I was shocked with electric. I was fucked, I was punished, I was tossed around and embarrassed. The best part of it all was when I finally got the chance to please my Mistress.

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–>After 100 scenes, one tends to know the ins and outs of the industry. When you first start it is a fantasy coming true. I was on cloud nine. Fucking and getting paid to do it. I was fucking my way to college! I was an 18 year old girl getting what I cared about the most; Money to shop ‘til I drop and a good fuck every day. I never even considered the grungy side of the business. I never once thought about the people who would try to take advantage of me. I definitely didn’t think about the physical pain I would endure later in life. However, a part of me doesn’t care. WHY? We only live once… I want to live my life to the fullest. I always tell everyone else to live like it was their last day alive. Why am I always trying to play it safe? I think that is a big reason why I got into porn in the first place.