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Porn vs. Medical Marijuana

Welcome to another thought via a porn chick’s head…(no pun intended).

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Since it is a Friday (and I am only 19), I am sitting in my cute little pink boy shorts with “Tight End” written across my bum, I am stoned, and extremely horny. I thought it would be a splendid time to write a blog for my site before I played with my pussy! Yay for you! This is Part one: Porn.

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The Part two: Marijuana, will be the next blog. Since I have too much to write about of the subjects… you will have time to think about the first part before you can respond with your opinions about this match up. REMEMBER: I always want to hear your feedback

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The moment someone finds out that I make Porn for a living, their whole demeanor changes. For example, instead of thinking I am this kick ass, down-to-earth, Cali girl… They now look at me like I am an alien and begin to ask me a million questions after blurting out judgmental comments. I find it all very comical… What difference does it make if we bumped into each other in the grocery store (I looked like an average 19 year old girl) and all of the sudden a bunch of $1 bills and a bag of marijuana fall out of my purse? Before this little bumper car action, you thought I was an innocent sweet college girl. Now you think I am either 1.) a stupid teenager, 2.) a druggie, or 3.) a stripper.  However, I am none of the above. All of this is inspired by questions I get from fans, high school classmates, home makers and business men.

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Porn. It was originally made to ONLY please me! Hahahaha! Kidding… but seriously porn is made to entice people, to help relationships, and to teach the art of finding true pleasure. At least that’s what it means to me. Over the years, the adult industry got more popular, easier to get into, hence began mass production. The mainstream media was quick to learn, sex cells, but they didn’t want to admit it. Along came stigma… everything that “normal” people think is taboo is performed on camera by me… so now I am a whore, slut, hooker, gold digger, drug addicted cunt who’s going to die from a disease. That is what I call “S-T-I-G-M-A.” What people outside of this industry don’t know is the adult business is a very profitable career. Not only do I get paid enough money, but I get to help others, I get to experiment with my sexuality, I get to teach about pure pleasure.. and I am everyone’s naughty girl next door. I love to please others while learning what pleases me. I get to learn how to manage money, making budgets, run a business, learn a trade, learn how to network, learn how to turn men on with my only my eyes at a night club…. Oh! I was going on a tangent… sorry.

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My point is… not every porn girl you see was a victim of abuse, a high school dropout, drug addicted, teen parent, mentally ill, or unable to have relationships. There are a lot of beautiful, intelligent, successful sex crazed goddesses that found their niche in the world. So before you judge me, when you find out I am an adult film actress, take a second to think how my life is hurting you vs. all of the men and women I help. J For the people who appreciate my work thank you! At the end of the day I still love myself and I have shot a lot of PORN! I don’t regret any of the loads you have shot all over your computer or TV screen because you learned how big of a 19 year old slut I truly am.

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Stay Tuned for Part Two… by Tara Lynn Foxx.

–>For some it is a day to remember, for others it’s just another gig. I was lucky enough to get a gig that I will remember for the rest of my life. I shot for kink’s public disgrace in my home town.

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–>Public Disgrace is a whole different level of porn. It is not just the black and white normal boring stuff. It is twisted, demented, unusual, difficult, extreme, intense, and demands a high sexual appetite. I had a blast but I definitely paid for it later….physically.

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–>When I got into hair and makeup there was a beautiful brunette trying on different clothes for her shoot. I didn’t know who she was so I assumed she was just another girl shooting for one of Kink’s sites. Then she started asking me about the scene and introduced herself as Princess Donna. She was my master that evening. I all of the sudden got excited… she was fucking hot. I love her boobs. I was a little nervous because of the things she was asking me of what I would be okay with and what I wouldn’t. It was all stuff that was either new to me or something I haven’t had much experience doing.

–>We went down to the dungeon and I saw the toy room for the first time. I should actually call it the equipment room.  There was everything from rope to clamps to chains to crazy looking gadgets to any kind of whip you can think of. I got a little scared, I’m not gonna lie. LOL. I walked across the hall to look at the set. Wow! It was grungy looking and a little intimidating. I still didn’t see all of the people since they kept them upstairs until it was time to start. I wasn’t afraid or intimidated by Princess Donna yet since she had been nice to me. However, that quickly changed. She told me to come back into the equipment room and had me undress. I was standing there practically naked while she tried on different metal chokers and restraints. At this point my heart was beating rapidly. I wouldn’t be surprised if she could have heard it! After they got all of the things together they had me go onto set. They tied me up and blind folded me.  I was scared. I heard her tell someone to go and get the guests.

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–>The lights were on, the camera was running and the scene begun. My hands were behind my back tied, my neck was in a choker hanging on a chain attached to the ceiling and I was alone. I was only alone for a couple minutes before I heard footsteps walking all around me after the metal door opened to the dungeon. I was told to introduce myself to the guests. I was trying to use my senses to figure out how many people were around me, but I had no idea. They laughed at me because I was too quiet. I was punished with water. They called it water torture. It wasn’t painful… it actually felt really good.

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–>A lot of crazy stuff happened in that scene. I was hung upside down bound by my feet. I was tied up in many crazy positions, I was shocked with electric. I was fucked, I was punished, I was tossed around and embarrassed. The best part of it all was when I finally got the chance to please my Mistress.

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–>After 100 scenes, one tends to know the ins and outs of the industry. When you first start it is a fantasy coming true. I was on cloud nine. Fucking and getting paid to do it. I was fucking my way to college! I was an 18 year old girl getting what I cared about the most; Money to shop ‘til I drop and a good fuck every day. I never even considered the grungy side of the business. I never once thought about the people who would try to take advantage of me. I definitely didn’t think about the physical pain I would endure later in life. However, a part of me doesn’t care. WHY? We only live once… I want to live my life to the fullest. I always tell everyone else to live like it was their last day alive. Why am I always trying to play it safe? I think that is a big reason why I got into porn in the first place.